Mood: Disappointed
Listening to: Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger - Daft Punk

Someone needs to write a guide to what to do for your first day of school as an NP student. Like, wear clothes that won't show damp patches when wet. And wear comfortable shoes which are suited for mountain-climbing. Also, sneaking in snacks in class. And oh oh, how about this... GO FOR YOUR ORIENTATION?

My class has like mini-cliques already; it makes it a challenge to make friends. Sure, I made a friend already but as for the rest, we just talk as acquaintances. It's so depressing. You know what's even more depressing? That there's actually people going, "I'm in nursing because I have no choice."

It makes me angry somehow.

I have also signed myself up for the softball team and the drama sector of the Malay Cultural Club. Wao, ambitious much?


Three years. Oh god, this is torture.

Labels: blah, school

Mood: Exhausted
Listening to: Wesker rambling - My brother playing RE5

It's coming. IT'S COMING. You ask what and I'll tell you, sweetcheeks!

THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL.

Mon dieu, I feel so utterly terrified. Paralysed with fear. The entire works, I tell ya. The whole "Will-I-make-friends-there" feeling coupled with the "Why-am-I-still-working" exhaustion. I feel absolutely certain that I will be completely miserable for the next 3 years.

To add to my insecurities, my dad has been being a tyrant and threatening me to throw me out of the house for just coming back half an hour late. Oh dieu.



Is there anyone going to NP? *hopeful*

Labels: do I have a tag for nervous breakdown, school, spazz

Mood: Giggly It's the song I tell you.
Listening to: Shawn Michael's Theme "Sexy Boy"

I was going to make a meaningful post until I heard this song and it's very hard to be coherent now.

HOWEVER, I'll try to make sense. I seldom do that nowadays, haha. Well, I'm heading off to Malacca and KL for the next three days. Dad's going for his usual medical treatment in Malaysia so me and mommy are gonna be accompanying him. I took a leave from work but I'll have to make up the hours next time. Mon dieu, I feel tired at the mere thought of it. *sighs*

... And as though to suit my mood, my player is changing to something more... less crazy. *coughsGoodOldFashionedLoverBoycoughs*

... I guess this post has no purpose except to explain my future absence. I'll see you all three days from now then, babycakes~! :D

Labels: irl

Mood: Ecstatic WHEEEE~~~ 8D
Listening to: Haydn's Piano Sonata No.59 in E flat major, Adagio E Cantabile

Like, I got my pay today~! 8D
... I think. Coz I lost my bank card and have no way to confirm it. But pfft, this is a minor problem. I am confident that my pay is already in my account and thus, had borrowed a few bucks from my brother to spend. And what did I buy?

INTERVIEW WITH THE VAMPIRE DVD, BEETCHES! >D

Like seriously, I found it at Lot 1's Laserflair. How awesome is that? Like, totally awesome that's what. It was M-18 (I actually asked my brother to buy it for me. He gave me a weird look which made me go all, "Oh. I am 18.") and it was in all it's uncensored glory - I can even see like how saggy that Creole woman's boobs were. And I can see Lestat's buttons~! ... Didn't mean it to sound weird sorry. But anyways, I've watched the movie thrice today. Not consecutively, silly! I watched it the first time at around 5 in the afternoon. And then I watched it again just now but it rewind at the end so I ended up re-watching it. I was all "Okay, after this part... The next part then... OOH this is my favorite part! ... Ah feck, I'll just watch the whole thing again."

I am happy now. This seems like such a trivial thing to all most of you but it truly does make me feel happy. And I need all the happiness I can get coz I'm working full shift tomorrow. Will. Endure.

I made it through the day without a panadol! :D

Edit: HAZEL IS COMING BACK THIS FRIDAY.

Labels: random

Mood: Content
Listening to: Still Alive - GlaDOS

Ooooh gooood I'm so wooozy it's like that time i slept in until and alarm clock ranged so loud and long and it worke me up my head hutr so baaaad then.

Oh wait, that was today.

I'm feeling great these days actually. Except for the headache but yeah. I'm proud to say I've been taking good care of myself. I eat at least 3 meals a day everyday and I take supplements too. There's my EPO, iron tablets, skincare tablets, cod fish syrup and lysine. Oh, also my daily panadol; it helps with the pain in my head. And I ate my first fruit of the year the other day~! : D

Also, I made a list of things to shop for when I get my pay tomorrow. I've decided to splurge a little - just a little - on M.A.C cosmetics. I needed a concealer so why not go for something I deserve? And perhaps a stuff toy to satisfy my inner child. As well as a new pair of shoes. How I love shopping. It makes me all giddy. And happy. The sight of an empty bank book wallet makes me cringe but it's okay coz I have unsupervised control of my cards. I have accepted it as a part of life. 'Sides, it makes the next payday seem like a blessing. (:

And though tomorrow is my off day (so is today actually, haha), I'm required to work in the morning coz we're short-staffed. And my boss got like a heart attack the other day so yeah. Not that I mind; I like working nowadays. I like it so much that I'm considering stopping school to work. But it seems like such a foolish and rash decision. Wait, those two words mean the same right? Oh my my, my grasp of English is slipping. Get it? Grasp, slipping?

Okay, nevermind.

I'm thinking of taking up smoking for a stress-relieving hobby (coz I don't think it's healthy to coop myself up in my room reading till my head spins hypocritical much haha) but I don't like harming my body. So I've taken to sniffing medicated ointments and sketching. I tried movie-marathoning at first but that just made me feel... horrible because the movies all suck. I regret watching Queen of the Damned.

My mother is being noisy again. It's making my hurt head head hurt.

I like blogging. It's nice to type. *random*

Labels: irl, PROGRESS I SWEAR