Mood: Irritated
Location: Blk 81, Level 2 (school)

Well. I never thought I'd come here again but here I am. Then again, this has always been a repeated procedure for me. Leaving my blog and coming back I mean. I was thinking of opening a new blog but then, the birth date of that blog would have no significance. So for a petty reason such as that, I'm gonna continue writing here till my 20th birthday and THEN I'll open up a new blog.

Labels: irl, phail

Mood: Discontent
Listening to: Seeker - Star Ocean: The Last Hope (Arrange Soundtrack)

Okay, pertame sekali, banyak ampun kepade korang yang tak boleh bace post ni. Kerane tetibe, terase pulak nak blog dalam Melayu haha. (Macam korang boleh paham pun ayat aku ni haha.) And sorry sikit eh, unlike typing dalam Ingerris, gua tak main bahase baku lah haha.

Mm.. baru-baru ni aku macam terase janggal sikit. Macam ade rase nyesal sume tu. Yelah, tahun ni macam tahun 3B untukku - buat-bende-bodoh. Nyesal pertame, aku gi hancurkan hubungan aku dengan kawan baik aku, A. Macam pikir balik, aku tak tau macamane bole sampai dini lah. Yelah, dulu kemain baik, slalu cakap, bergurau, etc. Skarang, berite satu habuk pun tak dengar. Aku mengaku lah, yang kali kite nak jumpe tapi tak tersampai tu salah aku. Patutnyer aku jangan nak cube selitkan a meeting bile kite dah janji nak jumpe tapi kan aku dah cakap: 3B babe. Skarang pulak ade rindu kat dier sikit tapi aku rase kalau dier nak dengar name aku tanpe meluak rase pun dah kire nasib baik haha...

Okay. Menyedihkan ah pikir pasal ni.

Kalau boleh, aku nak berbual ngan dier. Macam REALLY berbual. Aku nak bilang dier pasal budak tu ngan ape yang aku telah buat selame ni. Okay lah, secare terus-terang, aku menyesal. Walaupun bukan aku yang mulekan hubungan ni, aku ade jugak peranan orait. Dan walaupun aku sedar yang aku mungkin terluke, aku teruskan je. Macam aku pernah cakap; aku sedih takpe, asal orang lain happy aku okay je. Pikir balek, aku ni bengap ke hape seh? Orang hidup untuk diri sendiri kan? Yang aku pentingkan orang lain ni kenape?

Aku rase diri aku ni macam disalahfahami orang lain. Aku inginkan orang yang benar-benar tahu aku DAN boleh terime aku. Skarang ni, semua orang kenalkan aku dengan perkataan 'cute'. Aku macam nak jerit, "BUKAN TIDAK DAN NEHI. TU SUME LAKONAN SEMATE-MATE." Penat tahu, asyik act je. Macam life ni pentas permanent pulak.

Orait ah, setakat ni je aku berbebel. Esok ade CA kat polyclinic abeh lepas tu kene ciao gi kerje. Aihz... ni lah hidup seorang Haz. (:


.... That was awkward haha.

Labels: irl, rant

Mood: Calm
Listening to: Moan - Cute is What We Aim For

Qn: OMGOMG HAHA GUESS WHAT I'M DOING NOOOW???
Ans: Gossiping about boys with the whole Famiglia (particularly, one in Hazel's Aussie life) 8D

It feels so good to be able to catch up on each other's lives, I feel like I'm gonna cry. ... Actually, no. I'm too busy just laughing and smiling. It's been so long since I feel so... happy. And we aren't even having philosophical debates; we're just talking about boys and love and how some guys are trashtrashtrash and marriage and lame jokes and being nuns and NOT being good nuns and parents and hips and-

Well, we did a lot of catching up. (:

__________________


Sometimes, I analyze myself and conclude that I need to grow up. I'm so childish and I lack real life goal and dreams. Currently, I've set a target for myself. I call it 'The Australian Dream"; I planned to get into a uni in Aussie and join Hazel there. Setting goals based on the spur of the moment and such has always worked for me but 'fess it, I'm not a kid anymore. I need to evaluate seriously every single consequence of my actions. I need to take initiative and start making my own decisions.

My whole life, I hated making decisions. I always know what I don't want to do but not what I want. It's like, I'm not even sure if I'll be happy with the decisions I made so why not let somebody else decide, and make that someone happy? As long as there's someone who's happy, I'll feel happy along with that person so all is well. Right?

Sometimes, I feel envious that other people feel happy and not me. Then I realised it's my decision and I try to convince myself that I'm okay. It's so much harder though.

I sometimes wonder if anyone ever got honestly irritated at my indecisiveness.

___________________


I had a talk with my sister-in-law just now about guys and I realised that I probably missed out a whole lotta good guys in my life. And then I start wondering why don't I feel more concerned? I mean, I wish for all those girlish crap girls do: to be happily married, have children, have a loving husband who I don't mind slaving over cookbooks and preparing dinner for. So why do I not feel anxious that I may be left on the shelf?

In a way, I kind of think I don't deserve to be happy. Someone like me can never make anyone happy. So.. karma right? It's just deserving of me to not be happy then.

In a way, I'm no better than a piece of furniture. Let me be used. Let me please then. It'll make me feel that I'm worth something.

___________________


OKAY GUYS. BIG QUESTION. MANE AND TAIL, OR LOREAL ELSEVE? THE FATE OF MY HAIR DEPENDS ON YOU GUYS.

___________________


God. I'm one unstable mofo. All this was churned out in one go. o_o

Labels: famiglia, irl, musings

Mood: Loved
Listening to: Smooth Criminal - Alien Ant Farm

Today, Sarah sweetie actually dropped by my workplace just as I was finishing just so we could spend some time together.

I feel so utterly touched. Though I'm always up to stupid shit and worrying her, she has never once given up on me. She cares for me when I don't care about myself. My moral compass, my petite cherie. You mean so much to me. Really. Sometimes, I wonder what I've done to deserve such a friend like you.

We went to MacDonald after that because yours truly had a craving for dessert. I bought myself a McFlurry and a iced milo for Sarah. And would you believe that Sarah just totally dripped a good deal of the drink on herself as soon as she grabbed the cup? I couldn't stop laughing really. And then the cashier dude offered her tissues. Oh god, so nice of him. Sarah was gushing about his chivalry. (:

??: ! Ah, are you okay? *hands some tissues*
Me: *laughing a bit* Saraaaah~ Go wash it off before it sticks.
??: There's a sink over there - at the top of the stairs.
Sarah: OKAY. O: *skips up stairs*

So I was there, awkwardly handling my change, ice cream and milo all in one and the guy started talking to me.

??: So... name?
Me: Hmm? My friend?
??: *laughs* No, I mean you.
Me: EH ME? *insert Mihashi face* Uh uhm. Hazrina.
??: Haz... rina?
Me: Yeah.
??: *grins and shows his nametag: Hazli*
Me: That makes us two Hazs then! *grins back*

And then Sarah returned and as I was going to leave, he actually kinda leaned out of the counter and tried to continue the convo.

Hazli: Going home now?
Me: //HAHA NO DUH.// Yeah. Poor you, have to work.
Hazli: *smiles* It's okay really.
Me: Well, work hard! (:

Sarah kept teasing me afterwards haha. She said that I look different nowadays. Mahathir (our Brands supplier) said the same too. When he came to the store and noticed me, he seemed really distracted. Said I look all different without my glasses (I broke them OTL) and Evelyn had to call him twice to get his attention.

It makes me quite happy to know that I'm looking better (coz admit it dudes, I used to be all ugly duckling) but at the same time, it makes me feel sad. That people actually just looks at your exterior and not who you really are. Like me and Dawn like soooo didn't like Paul Twohill and when we saw him, we kinda made gagging faces. Until one day, she said, "What if he wasn't really like what he is on TV? Like that's just his media personality and he's a totally different, likeable person inside?". And that really got me thinking. The inside counts too.

I'm still trying to figure out my insides.

PS. SHANG'S BDAY CELEBRATION TMR. EXCITED DESU. AND AAAH I WANT TO GUSH ABOUT THE GUEST LIST BUT SARAH IS MAKING US SWEAR TO KEEP IT A SEKRIT. PLS REPLY BB.

Labels: friends, irl, musings

Mood: Anxious

In a span of less than 12 hours, I feel like my life is fu- messed up. I'm trying to stop cursing. Trying.

These days, I've been hanging out with Wahwah a lot. Like I keep saying, I feel protective of her. She found it a bit difficult to do her work (her English isn't that good) so I offered to help her. For the past two days, we hung out together as I guided her through her CNP. Unbeknownst to me, it appeared as though I was abandoning/ignoring Dawn. And this is so not my intention. I mean, she wanted to hang out with Jive, JJ, Marie and though I am able to get along with them, I still feel like I would be intruding on their together time. Me being a lamp post and all. So that's why I thought it'd be fine to leave her alone with them. Plus, we get to see each other during lecture time, right?

However, after my last lecture, as I was going out of the theater, she came up to me and thrusted ten bucks into my hand. For the uninformed, she owed me $7 for a mag and some smokes last time so I had earlier asked if she could return it anytime soon coz I was getting dry on cash (bleddy fu- hell. my pay still isn't in.) It wasn't that I was demanding the money; I just wanted to remind her about it.

But anyways, she went like "Your boyfriend complained about me. Keep the change. It's for me using your phone." before storming off. She uses my phone to contact people a lot since her phone is unable to make calls and sometimes for smsing too when her prepaid is finished. I didn't really mind. Much. Anyways, it wasn't a big deal. I mean, I top up my card every month when I get my pay so what's a few calls and smses to me eh? Anyways, it was to help a friend so I definitely didn't care.

But anyways, she was really furious. How did I know? Why, she called me up while I was in the bus home to tell me about it. Saying how people are ignoring her because of this vicious rumour that she is a bad influence on me and how she takes advantage of me by using my phone all that. I told her that I didn't care about those rumours because they were untruths but she just ranted at me, saying it doesn't matter if I don't think so because other people out there believe it. And when I asked her how I can help her, she went all "I am just telling you this so that you'd be aware of things. It's not like I want you to do anything."

God, life is so messed up.

Labels: friends, irl, school

Mood: Numb
Listening to: ... Nothing.

I'm currently in school now. And boy, sure feels weird to be updating here. /:

So I'm like right in front of the bookshop, using Wahwah's laptop (she is such a sweet girl really. makes me feel all protective over her~) and I have no idea what to do so I'm at my blog. Typing. Random stuff.

All of a sudden, I kinda missed the old Hazrina. The old Hazrina was a batshit crazy low-profile kinda girl. Now, people who I don't even know knows me. And it disturbs me. And frightens me. I feel conscious of every thing I do and though I act normal, I certainly feel that something is different.

I am a person who hates awkward situations. I'm hating now.

I wish I wasn't working coz that I'd have more freedom and no pressure to help people. I wish I wasn't so effing weak-willed and kind-hearted so people wouldn't take advantage of me. I wish I was more assertive so I actually do something about people taking advantage of me instead of just letting them be. I wish that I wasn't really what I am.

I feel sad.

Labels: irl, school

Mood: Content
Listening to: My brother playing F.E.A.R 2

ONE WORD: SENTOSAISADAMNBITCHINGSHIOKPLACETOGOIMISSEDITSOMUCHYAY.

...What. One word what. ;D

So yeah. Today was Dawn's early-mini-birthday-celebration at Sentosa. Initially, I was reluctant to go because (a) I look damn fuck in shorts. (My legs are like vampires. They were screaming when they saw the sun.) and (b) a bit... lazy sia haha. But then Jive like pangseh her so I felt bad for her. ... When do I not feel bad for people? ... That's beside the point. So yeah, I went.

The guest list was shortened due to incredible amounts of people following the pangseh trend so in the end, it was me, Dawn, V, JJ and Zhi. Initially, I felt awkward that they were all guys and I only knew Dawn. I had to go freak out at Sarah on the phone (Love you babe ;D) to calm my nerves. But we had fun. They were really nice people to hang out with!

Swim, swim. Damn fun. Until V went all asshole and dumped sand on my head. ON MY HEAD OKAY. I had a helluva time trying to get it out afterwards. But V is kinda funny. Like he went all "Hi, I'm V and I'm gay." on me and everytime we see a guy he'd be all "HMM. Not old enough. I like my man hot and mature okay. Does your dad have a big dick?". Crude, but fun. For srs. XD

And then I pangseh my workplace go Bugis with Zhi and JJ afterwards because they begged me to. ... I take it back, they're not nice people. Jk! XD We went to the arcade where JJ showed off his leet skillz. Sia lah, pity the guy who played against him man. We also went to watch Terminator and GOD IT WAS SO LOUD. I tell you tomorrow I sure die; cannot hear properly when I do my practicals. OTL Didn't reached home too late coz Zhi was sweet enough to let me hitch a ride on his cab back home. :D

Haha, and another funny thing that happened was that this guy tried to chat me up. And he talked to me in MALAY. Like shit man, even Zhi and V thought I was Chinese when we first met. A few hours in Sentosa bakes you up like whoa!

I've been feeling a little down lately (especially because of certain events) but today kinda cheered me up. Sentosa, you're like one of my fave places to go now. :3

OT: FFFFFFF- My bank account less than $30 sia. DDD:

Labels: FUN, irl

Mood: Blank
Listening to: The Middle - Jimmy Eat World

Every single day, I wake up and I ask myself: Did whatever I think happened yesterday actually happened?

Sounds like I'm a bit of a drunk haha.

Will blog when I get back from work at night.

Labels: irl, random

Mood: Exhausted
Listening to: Fly Me to the Moon Version 2009 - Evangelion

It's 12:17am right now and I just had my dinner. That's right. Dinner.

Mom and Dad went to pick me up after work and we went to Mustafa to shop for some kitchen stuff. I don't know about you guys but family affairs such as these are painful for me. We're not the type of family that go out on Sundays to bond or have mealtimes together, just so you know. So when Dad gets the brilliant idea to do a "family thing", it usually ends up horrific. Today was no exception. OTL

Anyways, work was tiring today. Another promotion update so I spent the day writing "2 for ___" repetitively. Also, we have a new staff at work and we spent quite a bit gossiping lol.

... And I'm getting fired by the way.

I don't hold Rose responsible. I kinda expected this was coming. I mean, I can barely cover my minimum work hours of 25 hours a week. So here I am, soon-to-be-jobless. I've been trying to find another job for myself, preferably a night job or a weekend one. Mom and Dad have pretty much accustomed themselves to me supporting myself so I think it's best if I continued working. I'll lessen the financial strain on the family at least.

That's all for my mini-update today. I still have work tomorrow morning so I'm off to bed. I have a feeling that one day, I'm just gonna collapse somewhere. I pray it won't be somewhere uncool like at a public toilet or something haha.

Edit: I've been checking for job opportunities online and... are those jobs for "young, attractive and outspoken girls" with a pay of "$200 - $1,200 per hour" what I think they are?

Labels: irl, work

Mood: Giggly
Listening: Dj Ozma - アゲ♂アゲ♂EVERY☆騎士

Dear Hazrina,

I was gonna have a heart-to-heart talk with you but it seems that you are mightily distracted by a gay-looking faggot dancing and shaking it like woah. Nevertheless, I shall still attempt to be serious.

So far, your pursuit of knowledge in polytechnic has been a... struggle of sorts. But feel proud, for I feel that you are able to overcome this all. As Dr Thomas said, you will discover what you really are inside and that's what I think you're coming to.

Try to correct the wrongs that you've done. ...Actually, your wrong is that you DON'T do anything. Well, time to get off that cute ass of yours and set things straight. Be professional. Be brave.

As for your education, I suggest putting it at the highest priority. You are NOT stupid. Just lazy. And lucky. So make good of your talents to propel yourself to the top. You're not gonna waste your time on the mundane. Nuh-uh, sister.

You've done some stupid shit too, in the short time where you were coming to realization. Try not to do it too often please. You worry me.

Also, your hands smell of sin. Which disturbs you to no end. I know because you'll have this funny look on your face when you're resting your head on your hand. I suggest you go buy yourself a bottle of hand sanitizer. And perfume. Lots of it.

Yours truly,
Hazrina

PS. Isn't it nice to address yourself this way? It feels more... honest somehow. Though I suggest not searching for crack songs on youtube prior to this self-addressing.

Labels: irl

Mood: Pensive
Listening to: Get Clean - Anarchy Club

To A:

I'm so sorry if I've been so distant lately. It just feels like things have been awkward between us. I get the feeling that you're angry at me or something. I'm especially sorry about today, didn't mean to bail out. I'd explain but you probably think it's an excuse. So I'm just sorry.

To D:

YOU. Haha, don't know what to say about you. I really appreciate what you've done for me, not just today but for all the other days. You really made my days at school more bearable. And sorry for getting myself into all sorts of things and you having to lecture me. But I bet you like playing barbie babysitter lol.

To C:

I'm still confused. I'm happy. I'm worried. I'm scared. I'm... confused.

Also, haha. Get ready for tomorrow man.

To R:

Chin up! There will be a point in life when things will be shitty. No choice - suck it up and smile! You'll look better that way than with a scary RAWR frown at least haha.

And thanks for taking care of me all this while. I'll miss you.

To my two S(s):

I love you guys. I'd say more but it won't be enough to show what I feel for you both.


... That's all for now.


Edit: Remember yesterday.

Labels: irl

Mood: Giggly It's the song I tell you.
Listening to: Shawn Michael's Theme "Sexy Boy"

I was going to make a meaningful post until I heard this song and it's very hard to be coherent now.

HOWEVER, I'll try to make sense. I seldom do that nowadays, haha. Well, I'm heading off to Malacca and KL for the next three days. Dad's going for his usual medical treatment in Malaysia so me and mommy are gonna be accompanying him. I took a leave from work but I'll have to make up the hours next time. Mon dieu, I feel tired at the mere thought of it. *sighs*

... And as though to suit my mood, my player is changing to something more... less crazy. *coughsGoodOldFashionedLoverBoycoughs*

... I guess this post has no purpose except to explain my future absence. I'll see you all three days from now then, babycakes~! :D

Labels: irl

Mood: Content
Listening to: Still Alive - GlaDOS

Ooooh gooood I'm so wooozy it's like that time i slept in until and alarm clock ranged so loud and long and it worke me up my head hutr so baaaad then.

Oh wait, that was today.

I'm feeling great these days actually. Except for the headache but yeah. I'm proud to say I've been taking good care of myself. I eat at least 3 meals a day everyday and I take supplements too. There's my EPO, iron tablets, skincare tablets, cod fish syrup and lysine. Oh, also my daily panadol; it helps with the pain in my head. And I ate my first fruit of the year the other day~! : D

Also, I made a list of things to shop for when I get my pay tomorrow. I've decided to splurge a little - just a little - on M.A.C cosmetics. I needed a concealer so why not go for something I deserve? And perhaps a stuff toy to satisfy my inner child. As well as a new pair of shoes. How I love shopping. It makes me all giddy. And happy. The sight of an empty bank book wallet makes me cringe but it's okay coz I have unsupervised control of my cards. I have accepted it as a part of life. 'Sides, it makes the next payday seem like a blessing. (:

And though tomorrow is my off day (so is today actually, haha), I'm required to work in the morning coz we're short-staffed. And my boss got like a heart attack the other day so yeah. Not that I mind; I like working nowadays. I like it so much that I'm considering stopping school to work. But it seems like such a foolish and rash decision. Wait, those two words mean the same right? Oh my my, my grasp of English is slipping. Get it? Grasp, slipping?

Okay, nevermind.

I'm thinking of taking up smoking for a stress-relieving hobby (coz I don't think it's healthy to coop myself up in my room reading till my head spins hypocritical much haha) but I don't like harming my body. So I've taken to sniffing medicated ointments and sketching. I tried movie-marathoning at first but that just made me feel... horrible because the movies all suck. I regret watching Queen of the Damned.

My mother is being noisy again. It's making my hurt head head hurt.

I like blogging. It's nice to type. *random*

Labels: irl, PROGRESS I SWEAR

Mood: Sleepy
Listening to: My brother playing Fallout 3

Um lesse... Something worthy to update with... Oh~!

Remember I said that I went for my health check? It's a necessity for Health Science (Nursing) students. And boy...

IT HURT LIKE A BEETCH. D:

So it goes like this : the doctor poked the needle into my right arm twice. He didn't manage to draw any blood so he turned to my left arm, but to no avail. He then changed to a finer needle for the syringe, but my left arm still refused to cooperate. Thus, he turned back to the right arm but it still wouldn't give blood. He then changed to the most finest needle and into my right arm it went~! And the blood flowed, but it was oh-so-little. And mind you, he didn't just stick the needle in me. He shifted the bloody thing (not literally, not yet haha) around while it was still partially in me. He should have thanked the heavens that he was a nice, young man or I would have torn his hide to pieces.

Mm.. I spent my last 2 days rolling about with a bit of a fever while finishing up the Tale of the Body Thief. That, and watching Interview with the Vampire on Youtube. While Brad Pitt and Tom Cruise stayed true to the image that I had ingrained in my childhood mind, Antonio Banderas made me want to kill kittens. I mean, I love the guy but him as Armand? Oh god.

Also, Lestat is one hell of a sexy blood-sucker.

Look at that face and tell me you don't agree. Why yes Lestat, you are damn pretty.

...W-what. It's not wrong to think of a vampire as sexy right? Plus, he's like being acted out by Tom Cruise so it can't be helped. And why is my post today revolving around blood haha.

Labels: fangasm, irl, phail

Mood: Blank
Listening to: The computer's fan

It's now 1am. 9th March.

.... *~*OFF DAY*~* MFYYYYYY! 8D

Still, I pretty much already have a plan today haha. Typical of me, to make myself busy on my free day lol.

In chronological order:
- Go jogging with mommy
- Go for health check
- Clear library fines
- Pay internet bill
- Shop for shoes/jacket (vvv not impt. sadly. orz)
- Work on katana
- Try to work my way around facebook. Again.
- Read 'The Tale of the Body Thief'


And then I'll complain that I'm tired and all that. I should really relax once in a while lol.

ALSO. I THINK I SMILE INSINCERELY. SRSLY. I glanced at the mirror at the till and noticed that the smile I usually give my customers look something like --> :]

Like, I would just thin my lips and slightly curve the corners of my mouth. And this look borders dangerously between a forced smile and a smirk. Which is quite beeyotch-y.

AND JUST NOW, on my way back home from work, something like, utterly shitty happened. There was this Indian lady behind me when I was going up the escalator and she called out to me. When I turned around, she asked me to carry her bag for her. SRSLY. NOT SHITTING YOU. I WAS SO STUNNED THAT I HELD ON TO THE BAG WITH A (0_0) -FACE. DO I LOOK LIKE YOUR PERSONAL MAID MA'AM? I have however, been mistaken as a Spotlight salesperson while wandering around there after work. orz Her sin however, was not making me into a servant of sorts, but she. Called. Me. AUNTIE. Like, FFFFF- you're ancient compared to me hag.

... I DON'T REALLY HAVE ANYTHING TO BLOG ABOUT. Also, dad came by the door and went all "I'll make it a black out if you don't go to sleep.". And we all know how Oda's word is law so fffff- going to sleep now ttylkthxbye.

Labels: irl, random

Mood: Hurhurhur..
Listening to: When You Were Young - The Killers

You sit there in your heartache
Waiting on some beautiful boy
To save you from your old ways

-When You Were Young

... I like this song. *hums*

Haha, it's been a long time since I posted something. I meant to give a lengthy update but I got carried away reading Anne Rice's Interview With The Vampire (totally justified, coz Lestat and Armand are hot and pitiful blokes noIdidn'tcried) so it's time for another one of my condensed posts~! 8D

As per usual, I shall only update with things I deemed worthy to mention. *lazypeas*

*~*11th February, Wednesday*~*

My original plans was screwed up a bit so I was quite free for the whole morning. Met up with a friend at CCK MRT where we took a bus to Orchard. This is like the umpteenth time I've been to Orchard this year but there isn't really much to do in small Singapore. OTL Went to grab a bite and I got my present from him, this really fancy looking mirror that we saw at Bugis the other day! So utterly pretty~! And you can slot a picture in the top mirror! *lovesloves it*

And for a lack of better things to do, we walked all the way to Clarke Quay after that, lol. There was also this guy who asked us for the kiblat (direction to face when performing prayers) at Takashimaya. That's right - the kiblat in a shopping center district. After directing him to the mosque nearby, we continued walking only to have the sky wrenched it's clouds dry on us. Thank god I had an umbrella but we were still drenched. OTL

And another thing that I've learnt is that it pays to be shameless. Initially, my friend wanted to get this butterfly pendent for me that we saw at Bugis but the bloody sod manning the cart stall had it sold off already. And sacre bleu, we saw it at Clarke Quay! At the cart stalls near the clubs by the Singapore river! The owner was a really funny guy, haha. Our exchange went something like this...

Me: Excuse me, how much is this?
Guy: Twenty-two dollars.
Me: //WTF. The one at Bugis was $25.//
Friend: You wanna get it?
Me: I'm not so sure... But I really like it...
Guy: *took down the pendent* Thank you~!
Me: O_O //Is he being sarcastic or something?// Um...
Guy: Okay, okay. How about $18?
Me: !! ... $18... The one we saw at Bugis was $25...
Guy: Bugis Junction right? That's another one of my store.
Me: !!! Okay... o_o Mm... $18 is a good price but... Price cannot be lowered any more? It's my birthday today...
Guy: Okay lah. Fifteen dollars.

IT PAYS TO BE A SHAMELESS PLUG. >8D


*~*13th February, Friday*~*

Friday the thirteenth stayed true to its name. There was this creepy guy who followed me around in NTUC during my work break and he tried to exchange numbers and was all leery. When I told him I didn't have a handphone, he told me to ask him out one day and we can go shopping for one together. I dumped his number afterwards. I didn't like him. D:


*~*28th February, Saturday*~*

IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE MY PAYDAY DAMMIT.
HQ didn't receive the part-timers' work hours so no pay for us. Yet. BUT STILL. D<


*~*02nd March Monday*~*

WORKED FROM 8AM TO 11PM FFFFF-
STOCK-TAKE IS A HATEFUL BEETCH.


*~*04th March, Wednesday*~*

Which is yesterday~! One of the rare occasions when I decide to look good working so I applied make up haha. And there was this Malay guy with two friends and two little kids looking at hair dyes while I was doing stock-receiving nearby. It went something like this..

Little kids: *doing what little kids do best, making noise*
M.Guy: [in malay] Don't be so noisy, wait you'll disturb that sister.
Me: *ignores coz oh god SIX toteboxes to go through OTL*
Little boy: EH THIS HAIR DYE IS GOOD IT IS IT IS.
M.Guy: Eleh, this little kid like real liddat. As if he's the one who's gonna dye his hair.
Me: *snorts with laughter*
M.Guy: Hmm? *notices me*
Me: *bites lip to stiffle smile*
M.Guy: Eh.. *motions to the kid* This sister like knows what we're talking about...
Me: *pretends to be engrossed in papers*
M.Guy: CHEE CHONG FUN CHEE CHONG FUN.

I totally started grinning then. It was either that, or laughing like a maniac.

He was out at the store waiting for me during closing time and we walked together to the MRT. We talked and he was kinda... a touchy-feely guy. But friendly enough, so I didn't mind much. Before you go "OMG WHORE ALERT." at me, I have to say that I've been feeling rather... lonely lately. Everyone went on their separate ways to their respective schools and everyday, work has been a monotonous routine for me. Though I don't complain coz I could be having it much worse, I sometime wish that things would be a little different. I feel so unhappy sometimes.

But like I said, I'm grateful for what I have so yeah. ...I don't really make much sense now coz I have to leave for work yet there is this pull towards finishing this post so I am just letting my thoughts flow through my fingers onto the keyboard and- ... Okay what was I talking about again? XD

So it's off to work now. I'll be having lunch later with the guy. We'll see how things go on from there. (:

Labels: irl, Make-up, Money, so not dead rly, work

Mood: fadsfasd YEE~ESSS! Accomplished
Listening to: Memories of You - Shoji Meguro

'Sup losers. I'M NOT DEAD.

... Okay um, I'll try to be orderly about this. Firstly, the reason I'm online~! My manager has been asked to reduce my working hours so this leaves me with more time to do... whatever the hell I want to, lol.

I think it's coz they end up paying me a lot. You know how part-timers are paid hourly while full-timers are paid a fixed rate regardless of working hours? Since I usually stay back so much, they prolly ended up paying me more than expected. Hurhurhur.

So these days, rather than my usual schedule of 10-14hours, my hours have been reduced to 7-10. This might sound rather much but it actually includes my travelling time of two hours per day. Why must I live so far. OTL

Like I said, there's a lot to blog about - but I usually forget as soon as I'm on the keyboard OTL - so I'll try to be orderly!

Also, check out the new moodtheme and song. Sweet eh? 8D

*~*Reply to taggers*~* (I don't want to flood my tagboard. D: )

Geelyn: Thanks for the sympathy dear D: Sometimes, crap happens. Hope you had a nicer day then me~!
Wani: Haha, thanks~! And wani (in Japanese) means ALLIGATOR. XD
Kit: OKAY. 8DDD Must hang out~!
Pls help: I'm sorry I couldn't help you. Why does this sound so cliche-movie-line-from-angsty-hero. I tried to do the survey for you but it seemed to be already closed. Also, a word of advice: Try tagging with your name. Putting "Pls help' makes you sound like you might be a possible virus, or a desperado. Possibly both. No offence! :)
Janice: That smell must be you. Tee hee, joke~! Thanks for checking back anyways. :D Hope you like the new update since it's SUPPEEER long. XD


*~*Prom*~*

I've been promising to blog about this but I will take the chicken's way out.

Someone spiked my drink so I ended up dancing the night away. I can't really recall what happened after that except that I enjoyed myself excessively. I woke up the next day with aching feet. Psst, one of the information provided above is a lie. Spot the not?


*~*Holiday*~*

I went to Thailand~! Okay to put it precisely, I went to Langkawi, then Hat Yai before finally going to KL and returning home. Tiring but quite awesome. I'm not so sure however, if it was worth working without any off-days just to make up for my abscence for 6 days.

Langkawi was frigging SCORCHING and no amount of SPF protection could save your skin. My sister-in-law was with us and it was her first time outside of singapore (JB does not really count) so we went to do all sorts of tourist-y stuff. Went to the underwater world (OVERCHARGING! It used to be RM17 and now it shot to RM28! D: ) and the cablecar (Long queue was long.).

AND I NEED TO SQUEE this is my blog so shut up I can squee here. My dad has a friend in Langkawi and every time we go there we meet up. Well, he has this adorable little boy called Zulkarnai and he gave me a flower. It was so sweet~!

At their farm :-
Me: *feels someone tugging on sleeve* Hmm? *turns around*
Nai-nai: *is holding out a yellow flower to me*
Me: ! Oh, is this for me? :)
Nai-nai: *nods and smiles shyly*
Me: Thank you! :DD
Nai-nai: *goes away blushing*

FASDFADSFAS UTTER CUTENESS. I totally melted. Guys don't really do these kinda small, sweet gestures these days. They should learn from him!

Also, he was wearing a sweater with the numbers 99 on it. Nai-nai, ninety-nine. Geddit? Geddit?? CUTE RIGHT? ... Oh god I'm such a pedo.

Thailand was less... tourist-y for us. Parents sealed themselves up in the hotel room while we youngsters prowled the streets. Didn't do much shopping but I did get this awesome pair of kickass 5+cm platforms (Will update with pictures soon coz I'm a show-off like that).

ALSO, I SAW A LADYBOY. HURHUR.


Shit, long post is long. ...Uh, just one more section then.

*~*Miscellaneous*~* (Why do I always end up choosing incredibly gay colors for the headings?)

Remeber how I said that the heat of Langkawi can pwn your skin? Well, my cheeks started peeling again (after it got all better too!!! D:) and my acne was acting up. And then I discovered the miracle - Himalaya. Not the mountain, you jackass. It's this brand of products which uses herbs and other healthy what-nots in their ingredients. Just two washes with their neem face wash and my skin has seen an obvious improvement. How obvious? Well, the huge zit on my forehead has been reduced to just a little dot. I highly recommend this product!

Am trying their acne-and-pimple cream too. The effect is not as fast as the neem wash but there's no side-effects. I'm willing to give this one time to prove itself. Anyways, this is better suited for me than Acneclear, NUteen and Clearasil (God, I hate this brand. It killed my skin. D< ) so for all you guys who have trouble finding the right cleanser, I say go for this. Also, Watsons is having a 10-50% discount on a lot of products and this happens to be one of them so trying it now would be damn economical! *Not really shameless advertising coz it's the truth*

Other things I have blown my cash on includes make up, USA Cosmode (*~*TOTALLY WORTH IT*~*), and a spanking Wacom Bamboo graphic tablet.

Yes, I love my pay. *flaunts*

*~*End of SUPPEEER long post of utter awesomeness*~*

Labels: irl, so not dead rly, spam, work

Mood: Morose
Listening to: I Think I'm Paranoid - Garbage

I'm kinda... pissy today, haha. I know it's not really good to be posting all "RAWR RAAANT." after not updating for quite some time but I've had a really horrible day and I can't help it.

(To put it simply) Horrible occurrences of the day:

#1: Stomache. Real horrid one too. I was late leaving the house for work because of it.
#2: Since I was late, I took the train. Oh god, cramped like sardines. Plus, I have the suspicion that some of the commuters did not bathe. Ew.
#3: Felt sick throughout my shift. 'Nuff said.
#4: My till was not balanced and I had to pay the shortage out of my own pocket. I am not entirely sure if it's my fault since we pretty much just use each others' tills but since my account was logged on, it was my responsibility.
#5: I got lost on the way to Bukit Merah's library. Imagine me, all sick and lethargic, shuffling about the whole of Bukit Merah Town Center. Ayup.
#6: I found out I have a $3 fine for overdue books.
#7: I took the wrong bus home and ended in the middle of nowhere.
#8: I went trekking. You know those steep hills all over SGH? Yeah, I conquered them all to go to the 190 bus stop.

My off day is tomorrow so I'll update about prom and other positive stuff then. A good night's sleep should fix me up. Hopefully.



... I feel so... upset.

Labels: irl, phail, rant, work

Mood: Content
Listening to: Hare Guu DX OP

Firstly, Gokudera in this content mood picture is so incredibly hot.

...Okay. So the first day of work was today. It was... okay. I was the first to arrive at the HQ (fsadfas I was 45mins early; talk about kiasu). Over there, I made a new friend (Haziqah is a really nice person! II HITO!). Sadly, we got posted at different places; she was assigned to Ngee Ann City and I, to Bukit Timah Center. At first, I was incredibly envious. I mean, she got the most hip and happening place (KINO IS JUST 3 FLOORS ABOVE HER FSADFAS; I WOULDN'T BE ABLE TO STAND IT) while I got posted to the back of beyond. But turns out it was a blessing in disguise coz NAC is THE biggest and busiest outlet and people often quit coz it's just that strenous. (HANG IN THERE HAZIQAH! >0<)

My co-workers are very nice people (II HITO.) and so is my manager! There's this lady called Azza (Her name is Azizah but short forms are totally the in thing now) and she showed me around and stuff. I'm supposed to be under her guidance. I'mma apprentice nao rofl.

Apparently, we have an old hag for a supervisor whom I haven't had the misfortune to meet yet. From what everybody says of her, it seems like she's the reincarnate of the Wicked Witch of the West.

And you know how we refer to shelves as shelves? Not in the sales department. We have the panogram, the power buys, the top shelf, the waterfall, the canadian cross, etc. My head is reeling from everything now. @_@

All in all, this is really a whole new world. I'm glad that I got posted where I did - everything's pretty much fine enough for me not to be not glad, haha. I may not be online much these days coz working is really tiring so I'll be using this blog as a means to communicate with the world. ...Not like anyone reads this heap of junk. XD

OFF TO SLEEP NOW. Yes, I am that tired.

PROM NIGHT TOMORROW. Thank you Sarah, for being my fairy godmother. ;D

Labels: irl, work

Mood: Indescribable
Listening to: Wani to Kotori - Kimura Kaela

I'm starting work on Monday. It'll be a weekday job so I'll only have Saturdays and Sundays free.

Normally, people will be enjoying their 'freedom after Os' time. And here I am, committing myself to a job till school starts again (hopefully).

...What the hell am I doing.

Labels: Bleah, irl