Mood:
Numb
Listening to: ... Nothing.
I'm currently in school now. And boy, sure feels weird to be updating here. /:
So I'm like right in front of the bookshop, using Wahwah's laptop (she is such a sweet girl really. makes me feel all protective over her~) and I have no idea what to do so I'm at my blog. Typing. Random stuff.
All of a sudden, I kinda missed the old Hazrina. The old Hazrina was a
batshit crazy low-profile kinda girl. Now, people who I don't even know knows me. And it disturbs me. And frightens me. I feel conscious of every thing I do and though I act normal, I certainly feel that something is different.
I am a person who hates awkward situations. I'm hating now.
I wish I wasn't working coz that I'd have more freedom and no pressure to help people. I wish I wasn't so effing weak-willed and kind-hearted so people wouldn't take advantage of me. I wish I was more assertive so I actually do something about people taking advantage of me instead of just letting them be. I wish that I wasn't really what I am.
I feel sad.
Labels: irl, school
